Thirteenth of April 2012

Thirteenth of April 2012

Happy Birthday to my lovely sister!  What memories we have together.  Here are some that I can never forget:

Worse Memory
My little sister fell down the stairs from those crazy walkers, BUT only a cut lip...with necessary stitches!  She was only a tiny baby!!  Wow..God really has a plan for her and made sure that it wasn't her time to go.  I remember before this moment, I was a bit jealous of her receiving more attention than me.  I was the camera hog.  I loved to talk everyone ears off even if they were pretending to listen.  However, from this point forward, I told myself that I would never let anything happen to her again.  I, of course was around 8 years old and didn't know what I was talking about.  I am incapable of protecting my sister from harm, hurt, pain, and suffering.  It is inevitable.  However, I know that prayer is something that was useful as well as good advice.  Therefore, I made sure to use both for my sister's future endeavors.  Thankfully, God listened and He is very faithful!

Funny Memory
I would babysit my sister when she was around five or six years old.  I was such a romantic (loved nature, romance, and fantasy).  I pretended that I was from Britain and from the 1800s (basically Jane Austen's biggest fan!!)   Around morning time, I made breakfast for my little princesita, but I acted as if she was the most famous person alive.  I was the poor little waiter who waited by the kitchen door for her.  She would knock on my imaginary restaurant door and I would welcome her with my hilarious British accent.  Well, to her it was hilarious and to me it was the best accent ever.  For others..not so much.  I even believed that I was really adopted from British relatives.  Yes...I was such a romantic.  Back to my memory..I created my own menu and asked what my "famous" person wanted for breakfast.  There were even times where I would secretly take out my mother's precious tea cups and I would host this lovely, grand tea party for our "guest."

Today's Revelation
My sister said something to me today made me think about what makes our birthdays or our days in general.  Are we supposed to wait, wait, wait for people to please us and make us happy?  Like I said in my first blog, we really cannot depend on people to make us happy.  Of course, there are those who are gifted with bringing laughter and giggles.  However, it shouldn't be something that we expect from people.  We have the power to make our days go well...not, literally, everything around us.  We cannot control the things around us, but we do thankfully have control of how we will respond to the things around us.  I have been raised as a thermometer: easily moved by anything and everything...ultimately making me a super-sensitive person... Well...not ultimately..because it is in my make-up that I am sensitive.  However, I did not learn that I don't have to be a thermometer.  I can be a thermostat: when everything around me is as a roller coaster ride, I can choose to stay on, or get off... or I can even embrace the moment or abhor it.   Or I can control ME during the HOT and COLD moments of my life and choose to just BE HAPPY!  This isn't easy as it hopefully sounds.. When there are those seasons when everything seems to be going wrong I can decide how I will respond.  My emotions can dictate: "oh, what a horrible life I have...woe is me." OR I can think about how I'm still living and how I have so much (family, fiance, friends, a job, a car, some money, two degrees).  And in those moments I can turn to God and say.. thanks for what you've given me..no matter what!  And the last thing I can do is just trust in Him... Because faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see....so when all things are going wrong...I can believe that God is still with me.  Worry really won't help, so why bother!!

It's funny...because my faith is really growing more and more..especially in those harsh seasons.  So..trust and faith is really a big part of this walk....no matter what!

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